Mother, God has given you a little flock to care for. You are to shepherd them as God shepherds His flock. I know that sometimes you feel overwhelmed and everything seems to be on top of you. But, be encouraged.
Listen to how God feeds His flock. Micah 5:4 says, "And He shall stand and feed his flock in the STRENGTH OF THE LORD." If Christ feeds His flock in the "strength of the Lord," surely that's how you should nurture, feed, and tend your little flock.
Don't try to do it in your own strength. Trust in God's strength. He is with you every moment to refresh you, strengthen you, and revive you. Confess your trust in Him and stop confessing all the negatives.
Love from Nancy